Friday December 14th 2012
Structure is usefully defined this way, "The
interrelation or arrangement of parts in a complex entity." This
definition suggests that a structure exists, and to understand it fully,
better to dissect out its parts, give them names, lay them out on the
table, point to this or that part and declare, "X looks like this and in
the whole it performs the function of B." Then if I wish to
replicate a structure, I can do so with some sense of confidence.
And while doing so, I can perhaps add a little something here and a
little something there, which might either enhance the structure or
cause it to fall down when the wind blows. Structure can also be
thought of in terms of reasoning. A logical argument has
structure. A belief in facts as the basis of an understanding has
the makings of integrity within a structure. The Earth is
currently a middle aged Globe, which travels around the Sun.
My own struggle with structure is perhaps less
complex. I have found that applying myself on as daily a basis as I
can manage to the mostly nonsense upon these pages, I am able to develop
what I will call a, "structural integrity." Certainly this integrity
is more likely an integrity within the structure of my emotions, and this
is, I have to admit, an integrity that could also be achieved through
medication by prescription drug or regular visit to the liquor store.
However, the question I ask myself is why I attempt to share these pages
with others. This motion within me, is maybe something to do
with pandering to an outside and self perceived entity that has authority
and from whom I may receive the occasional pat on the head. And this thought
unsettles me because it calls me to it, in the way that Sirens called
mariners to destruction on the rocks that surrounded their flowery island.
Which I guess could be called a "dialectic of me." But I prefer to
think of it as a geometry, because "dialectic" in my mind implies progress
or advance, where as geometry more likely, just is.. A necessary
distinction in an understanding of "being," or "consciousness," or
"awareness," or "nature."